Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Sailing My shoes to TImbuktu- Joyce thompson

The book I have been reading is called " Sailing my shoes to Timbuktu" By Joyce Thompson. I know we should not read books that we do not like but I cannot help it. I hate having to give up on a book when I already started. The only reason I was reading this book was because thriftsbook.com messed up my book order and I hadn't gotten the other book I wanted.  I figured why waste a book thats here. I don't like it because it's really confusing. It talks about a religion I never heard of. Also I feel like its random stories put into one. She goes from talking about herself to her mother and each chapter is about an event that happens. I am not sure if it is in chronicle order or not. It's a bit confusing and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone to read. At least I wouldn't recommend it for teenagers. Maybe someone older who would be able to appreciate it more and possibly someone who is spiritual and open minded. 

Friday, March 20, 2009

The truth about Jack's mother


**Just to let everyone know I am basing my story from the musical Into the woods. I am telling the story from Jack's mothers point of view which is what i think might of happened to her.

One day that seemed ordinarily beautiful turned into one of the darkest days of my life, it was about 11 years ago. The birds singing their beautiful tunes that all the little kids were dancing to. The sun shining its sweet rays onto our little shack. My wonderful husband smiling toward the window with his book in hand. We lived in the woods in our fairy tale of a town. It was wonderful. I felt like the richest woman in the world. Which to be honest was the total opposite of who I was. Our shack was not the best but I tried to keep it as clean as possible. I only wanted the best for the two men in my life, my husband and my one year old child Jack. As the day progressed the sun began its usual journey of setting as the glorious moon took its place in the night sky. I laid my little one into his crib where his little eyes instantly gave into a deep sleep. I walked to where my husband was sitting in his chair watching the stars from the window. He just smiled as I kissed him on the cheek and whispered goodnight. He didn't reply back but he rarely ever did once Jack came into the picture. I walked into my room where our worn out mattress lay. I got myself ready for bed and as my head hit the pillow the thunder began. The pouring rain was the key which unlocked the doors to my dream world. That very next day I woke alone. I figured my husband was up and about doing something. Maybe taking to Jack who must of woke yearning for attention. I walked to where Jack was silently dreaming. No husband just silence. The day progressed and my love had not been home. No notice of anything of his where about. It was that night I was stripped of who I used to be. I was not rich anymore instead I turned into what I looked like and people would assume me to be. A poor woman raising a child which would age me to desperation and anger. I blamed the only person I could think of. Jack.

Now at age 12 Jack has grown up fatherless. His shaggy carrot top hair and sunny although vague disposition reminded me so much of his father. Just the thought of how Jack resemebeld his father made me age in a way I never knew was possible. In a matter of years our shack which I made to look as clean as possible turned into the dumpiest place I could have imagined. I just gave up. I did love Jack. I always would, he is my son, my flesh and blood. The one of the two men who hadn't left me. Yet, I couldn't help the anger, the misery that would build as I looked into his eyes. Before he was born all was well now it is not.

It was a normal day in April. Nothing out of the ordinary was happening. Jack could never get it through his thick skull that cows were meant to stay outside. I would yell everyday for him to bring her by the big tree out in front. But no Milky white was his friend. Milky white was not meant to be treated any differently than humans. For God sakes Jack couldn't even get the right sex of the cow. Milky white is a she but to him it was a he. Why was I cursed to have a son as stupid as Jack? The only reason I took in Milky white was because she was just wandering in town and had no where to go. It was a few months after my husband left and I needed to find some source for food and money. A cow seemed to be perfect. Heck she even got Jack off of my back for a while. But as time moved on Milky white started to become dry. " her withers wither with her" as she stayed by Jack's side. I yelled at him to go to market but he ended up just running around in the woods pretending no one wanted to buy her. Seriously does he think I am that stupid? Especially since I watch him run the other way of town. Well, today I had enough. I was tired of our measly crumb of bread that we got to eat once a day. I yelled for Jack to march Milky white to market and this time for real. I watched as he tried his usual trick of going down a "new path" to market. New path my tucus I thought as I scowled at him to take the regular route. He ungratefully gave in and I watched Jack and Milky white disappear into the trees.

Hours worth of waiting and Jack had not been home yet. Not too long as I was beginning to worry that the last person who could love me left I saw him. His head hanging low with his shaggy hair covering his eyes. Something wasn't right. He walked right in and smiled saying he found a new friend. I gave him questioning eyes as he held his fist out which I thought might be gold. My eyes lightened up seeing that maybe my son did something intelligent for once. Now thats a lot to ask for isn't it? When I see him showing me three green beans. I thought he was kidding but no. Apparently they aren't just beans they were " magic beans." God now I see why my husband left. He must have known what an idiot Jack is. He was sad and I was mad and in the end we had no food to eat.

It wasn't till a few days that Jack start smiling. Why the hell would he smile after he cried about loosing his cow friend? He wouldn't say. Something was up and I didn't like it one bit. He left the house and began his journey through the woods. I'm his mother if he doesn't tell me what he is doing I must follow. It's the motherly thing to do of course. It was a longer journey then I thought it would be but boy was I surprised. I never knew Jack could actually keep a place liek this a secret. It was a calming scene with one huge bean stalk traveling to the sky. That little lake pretty much took my breath away. Then seeing Jack climb that bean stalk nearly gave me a heart attack. I waited minute after minute after minute and no Jack. He was still up there and it was getting a bit past noon. I decided he would come down when he wanted to.

As the sun was setting Jack walked in the door. He just smiled like I use to smile when my husband was around. He was in love. But who in their right mind would love my son like that? Heck even I can't understand why I love him. He told me he fell in love. But it gets better. He told me who he was in love with. A giant. I thought he was out of his mind crazy. He said he had other news. News about the giants mother and my husband. Well, lets just say I had no problem burning down that oh so big beanstalk.



Monday, March 16, 2009

Math on a sick day


You wake up at your normal hour of the morning. All seems well. You get dressed , eat breakfest and head off to school. You follow your normal routine of socializing, putting things away in your locker and getting to class before the bell rings. Each class slowly passing by slower then usual. Then you arrive to that one class you pray won't drag as much as you know it will. It's math. You hate math. The teacher talks on and on but you drown them out. Your hatred takes over and you drift into your dream world without math following. In that day dream the word math or talk of it is not allowed. "ring ring" the bells sounds off.  You think nothing is wrong.  Passing people in the halls casually throwing around a "hi" , " whats up?".  Its just the normal end to your normal day. You get your things and head off home. You notice as your on your route home your tired. You decide to take a nap. You were suppose to nap for a half an hour. Instead you napped for 3 hours.  You think of it as a minor detour. You take out the work you have to do and see its not much. You do half of it then go online. Your friend Ims you. She seems frantic. You think she is being paranoid. She asks you math questions and asks you about the test. You stop then question her. " what test?". She writes back " the one that counts 30% of your grade test". You think she is joking. Its 11:30pm. She's not. She tells you what is on the test. Each topic having one thing in common. You got an F on each test you took for it. You are beginning to stress out. You tell your friend you need to go. You run for your math book and all the numbers start swirling into a foreign language. Your mind is racing. You have no idea what to do. Think, think think! You got it! You stay home and take the test in two weeks. Of course the teacher wants to give you a test right before your break. How do you get your parents to go along with it. Think, think think! The sniffles! Thats it. Your nose has been acting up lately. You go to bed making sure your parents see that a cold is starting up. When you wake up you talk in a nasally voice. You tell them your nose is stuffed and you feel chilly. You remember how you always get cold before a fever starts to come. Its perfect! A bullet proof plan. Immediately you put it to work. You finish whats left of your work and check your math book one more time. Make it look like your trying. Go to bed. 5:30am you call your mom.  Tell her your nose feels stuffy and throw in a cough or two. Tell her your cold and want to stay home for the day. She buys it! Your free! You can not believe you did it. You go back to sleep almost instantly. But wake up in four hours. You grab your math book and study like you never studied so hard. You never looked at math for so long. It makes you nauseous.  You go over it like there is no tomorrow. You finally start to get it! You say to yourself you will be ready, you can pass this test! Your confident. You check the time. School has been out for one hour and a half. Go online. Your friend is on. Your eager to ask how the test was. She tells you " Mr. Pratt was absent and the test was cancelled". You grow numb. Crawl back into bed and sleep and forget the math that haunted you that day.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Life on the color line : in Gregory Howard Williams Prospective

Silence fills the air
Only one voice pierces through
The scraping of the chalk against the board as 
words are being told into a story
History is being taught
Students watch with boredom crossing their faces
except one
A squeak or two from a chair but everything is still
Its just a classroom 
where blacks and white can sit with no disturbance
I may look white but am truly black but I learn just like everyone else


Each word escaping her lips
I grasp more of the world
the knowledge growing inside me
my new desire to learn
in class I sit
I feel my skin has no affect
I'm normal for once in Central High in Muncie, Indiana
My classmates stutter for an answer 
While I scream it in my head
Finally my lips speak for the screams in my mind
I'm right